Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Trust



God, you are sovereign in my life.  I know all good things come from You and that You can make good things come from bad.  I trust You.  Amen.

More


But don't you know who you are?
You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.
 - You Are More by Tenth Avenue North

How much do I love Him?

James 1:12

New International Version (NIV)
12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.

How much do I love Him?

I want to do something for Him in return for all He's done for me...and that is to strive to love others as He loves me.

Love

To be loved this way...and then, out of sheer joy, to strive to love others the same way. Good song.



"By Your Side"
by Tenth Avenue North

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching
As if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

'Cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands at my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

And I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

'Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, yeah I'll love you
I'll never let you go, no, no

And I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Here at my side, my hands are holding you

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Are you who you want to be?

The song below has a line that got me thinking.  It's not about what I have, what I am or what I do, it's who I am. Am I who I want to be?  A resounding YES.

I have been wondering who I am since my marriage broke apart, my family was torn apart, and I had to become a working mom suddenly.  What am I?  What do I do?  Who am I?  What is my role?

This song came on the radio while I was steeped in these thoughts on my way to work.  "Are you happy with who you are?"  YES.  I am the kind of person I can be proud of in any situation.  I love, I give, I do my best.  I am the kind of person I'd want as a best friend.  If it were the end of my life now and I had to face God with all I had (not) achieved, I could face Him knowing I am who I want to be. 

This is Your Life
by Switchfoot

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be, yeah

This is your life, are you who you want to be, who you want to be yeah
This is your life, are you who you want to be (who you want to be)
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

And you had everything to lose

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Truly you are the son of God.

Matthew 14:22-33

New International Version (NIV)

Jesus Walks on the Water

22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.
25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 “Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Growth is painful, growth is healing

Ultimately growth is peace and I will trust in God to care for me and my loved ones.

Success?  It is to live well.  To live honestly and fully.

When I look back on my life, I want to see it was a life lived in love; a gift to God.  A gift of trust, faith and gratitude.

Jesus, I trust in You.

Boo, pray for us.

Friday, July 5, 2013

The future.

I never knew what the future held, but I lived as if I did.  I had that luxury of thinking I knew what to expect, what I could count on, plan around and determine.  That's a crazy place to live, I am discovering.

RIGHT NOW.  That's all we have.  This present moment.  This is where Jesus is.  I am.  Not I will be or I was, I am.

Right now I am hanging out with my husband, playing good music.  We just ate a nice dinner that he made, we've loved up Best Cat.  Life is good.  :)

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

I believe.

I believe in you, Jesus.  I believe you will protect me and keep me safe in this storm.  The wind is blowing, yet it caresses my face and I know it is You who holds me near and reminds me that You will never leave me, that nothing can separate me from Your love.

I am peaceful, I am calm.  I am brave.  I am strong.  I will do as our Papa tells us, to take the present as it comes.  I trust the rest to You, my dear friend and comforter.

Amen.

Thank you for healing me and my husband and children.  Thank you for the healing to come.  Amen.

Monday, June 3, 2013

His tender mercy



Thank you, God, for the Presence of your Son in our lives, and the Holy Spirit that flows between us and Him and each other, helping us communicate and heal in our family.  Amen.

Friday, May 31, 2013

Soul/Spring update

You can see a little more green on the buds of the tree (that represents my soul/life).  Healing abounds.  God is restoring all things, renewing, repairing, replacing, recreating.  God is GOOD.  :)

Thought of B-Boo today because she was thinking of me - that's what I always think when I hear Mercy Me's song, "I Can Only Imagine."  Made me smile and sing out loud.  Thanks, kiddo.

God still has a lot more work to do in our family, but the more we progress, the more I realize he has been with us all along.  I knew that, but now I KNOW that.  I trusted, but now I see that I can trust so much more.

I am still susceptible to anxiety/depression regarding the unknown.  It leads to overeating and difficulty doing the things I love, but I work through it and cling to Jesus.

Got news yesterday from people who can help me find a good, long-term job.  My dear husband is making progress regarding a job.  The sun is warmer, the days are longer, the kids hug more.  Strengths get stronger, weaknesses are accepted and their power diminishes.  Time is healing.

Monday, May 27, 2013

Memorial Day, 2013


 

 

What Faith Can Do

Kutless

 

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do

Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Whenever I see your face...


Whenever I see your face (your picture), Boo, I think of you.  Whenever I pray the creed and come to "communion of saints" I think of you.  Whenever I see pink skies, hear the song "I Can Only Imagine" and see a cat, I think of you. 

These are all good thoughts; all good moments.

Always.

Forgiveness


Wednesday, May 15, 2013

From hurting to healing, peace and joy

I used to live in the present as a way to cope and get through something.  Now I am living in the present as a way of life because there is peace and joy there and I am living each moment fully - an abundant life.  This is a blessing I have reaped from my recent trial, a huge blessing.  I have yet to see the many ways it is transforming me.

Whenever I am stressed and find myself slipping into the past or growing anxious about the future, I draw right back to the present filled with an abundance of blessings and grace.  There I live in His Presence and I am filled with peace and joy.

Thank you, Jesus.  Never let me be separated from you.